My feelings do not dictate the will of God in my life. Nor, do my feelings determine his faithfulness, his goodness, or his love for me. There are some days when I hear Him loud and clear, and then there are other days when I feel like he's farther as far away as the moon is to the earth. But thing is, that's just feelings. I wake up some days and I feel like I have the faith to conquer the whole world! Then, days like today I feel as dry as a desert.
He's as near as the air you breathe. His love is as endless as a bottomless pit. A part of walking the journey of faith is knowing there will be times when we have to remind ourselves of his goodness and accept that his presence doesn't seem right beside it even though it's just mental deception. As believers, we were sealed with the Holy Spirit as a guarantee of our salvation. In the dry riverbeds, I like to think about this fact more deeply... "set his seal of ownership on us, and put his Spirit in our hearts as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come. (2 Corinthians 1:22)"
What does that mean for us? Is this part of the very immediate, instant access to the Father that we are told about all the time? Does that mean I can take in a breath, and close my eyes, and imagine that He's there on the inside of me? Does it mean I can believe that the very air I breathe is the spirit I am taking in with each inhale? Oh dear ones, it means that his nearness is transcendent beyond this reality. It means in every step we take, in every thought we make, HE IS THERE. It might be invisible, it might be subtle, but it's very real. "By faith he left Egypt, not being afraid of the anger of the king, for he endured as seeing him who is invisible. (Hebrews 11:27)"
Moses left Egypt without fear because he had the faith that helped him endure as though he had seen him who was invisible. He had the power to step forward and be the leading force of change for the Israelites as God intended because he trusted Him to show the way. There are countless times in the story of Moses and the Israelites where even when they had visible miracles of God's reality, they still had doubt. They still had fear. They still had to question his integrity, and still questioned inside whether they should trust the all powerful God who parted the very sea for their salvation. The constant, everflowing, abundant love of Christ is shown all over scripture and even in our lives. We need not fear, or give into the lies of the darkest valley (Psalm 23:4), because it is just that--deception. God is always constant; God is always true.